There is something so odd about being a Senior in high school. You feel as if you're on top of the world one minute, and stumbling down the next. You are excited for the future, but terrified to say good bye. The last 8 months have been filled with more emotions than the last 18 years of your life.
We supported each other in times of need when it all seemed like too much. We never took a second for granted, even on the nights when we just felt like staying home. On a typical Saturday night we took tons of pictures at a party trying to get the perfect group picture to frame for our dorms. Throughout the year we congratulated each other on acceptances and comforted each other after being denied. We attended our friends sports games and cheered them on from the sidelines. We celebrated 18th birthdays & becoming legal adults. I remember sitting in the bleachers at a lacrosse game in silence for a few seconds and during those few seconds I realized how precious this time is.
I have to admit that Graduation snuck up on me.. Football games, Homecoming, Halloween, Thanksgiving Break, Christmas Break, New Years, College Visits, Winter Sports Week, Basketball Season, Promposals, Valentines Day, Senior Retreat, Lacrosse Season, Rib Round Up, & Spring Break. These things have practically flown by and now all we have left is Prom, The Senior Fashion Show, Sunfest, & last of course the day we have all been waiting for, Graduation.
With only 2 months left in my Senior year I realized I can't imagine my life without these people. So when the end was near I started to see the things I took for granted as a miracle. The last few months it has gotten harder, and knowing that it's almost over made it the scariest part. Of course the caps and gowns are shiny and beautiful, but after all the chaos they will sit and collect dust in the back of our childhood closets and all we will have is the memories to look back on. You know that the end is coming and you finally have a plan. You can pack and get ready, but you will never be prepared for how it's going to feel. It's so hard because nothing is ever going to be the same, and that's when the comfort starts to diminish. Ending a big chapter in our life is so hard because as much as you want it to keep going, nothing is going to be the same anymore, not after this.
"Senior year. And then life. Maybe that's the way it worked. High school was just a prologue to the real novel. Everybody got to write you -- but when you graduated, you got to write yourself. At graduation you got to collect your teacher's pens and your parents' pens and you got your own pen. And you could do all the writing. Yeah. Wouldn't that be sweet?"
-Benjamin Alire Saenz