"Why I wish my relationship had ended in a screaming fight.
This may sound weird to all of you people happily in the honey moon phase of your relationship, but everything good comes to an end.
You can give someone everything that you possibly have to give, and it simply won't be enough. You can give them your heart and unconditional love, and they’ll just take it from you. That's just the way people function. They want more and more and more until you have nothing left to give, then they move on like nothing ever happened. And here you are left, destroyed. You've spent years taking your kings armor off, learning about all of his secrets. Then one day you're left with all of those intimate moments piled up in your memory. You feel weird bringing up past happy memories because you know they won’t ever happen again. You look through old pictures, you see the two of you growing up together. You forget everything bad that they ever did to you and only remember the happy moments, that is what hurts you the most. You can’t seem to remember the numerous times they let you down in ways you never imagined possible, you only remember their smile and that time they surprised you. Attempting to be friends with your ex is delaying the imminent hate of a failed relationship. You think that you can handle friendly texts and snapchats every once in a while, but deep down you know you really can’t.
You think you see them in a group passing by, or hear their voice behind you in class. Everything makes you think of them. Whenever you have great news they're the first person you want to tell, but you don't want to seem too eager to talk to them. Everything just feels uncomfortable. Nothing is the same, and when you finally realize that.. everything goes downhill. You begin thinking of the possibility of getting back together. You think of your past together, and your future alone. You run millions of conversations and scenarios through your head where you end up victorious. Then you think about it. Even if I win I lose. I can give him what he wants, but can he give me what I want?
The answer is no. I wish my relationship had ended in a huge fight. I wish that I didn't still care. I wish I could move on. I wish I could hate my ex, but I know I never will."
This article was writing by one of my closest friends, she is incredibly smart, beautiful, and kind. Although, she preferred to keep this post anonymous, which I will respect. I am so proud of you and everything you are doing. Love you forever and always.
"There are all types of love in this world but never the same love twice." F. Scott Fitzgerald